an emo day!~

it s been quite some time since i felt this emo feeling~~hahaa.. mayb cz my results are coming out..and im kind of confused over my future now,.. sigh~~ on one hand i wanted to help my dad so much knowingly the effort he poured over to this family, and i dun wana live on now by just studyin n seeing him aside unable to help anything.. some times i do envy my brother.. at last he graduated n came out supporting the family as well leaving his personal life aside first... i really hope i can make some contribution to this family for the time being.. the fact that im studying now will onli make me feel that i cant contribute anythin and indeed im pretty useless ~~ sigh~~

i remember what my frenz told me, and this is the concept i hold on til now... what a guy should concentrate on will be money, money and money.. it is only our job to find as much money now and the wealthyness of a person will determine the self respect he deserved~ and that is also why indeed i tried different kinds of jobs to handle different kinds of experiences in life.. HAHA~~ anyway.. living in a society in kl is really not easy~ putting on a mask while going outing is a very hard thing to be done.. if we re enjoying with our elder, or more likely our clients, den we need to follow watever he wants to please him.. oh joy to the world!! its like life in hell~~

haihz~~ im reli feeling the stress now although im still studying~~wat can i do?? i wana start workin so eagerly that i dun wana study~~ sigh... jz hope that i could finish all the courses as fast as i can~~ den i can come out n face the world~~ the feeling of loneliness is non other than 'lonely' really nid to find something to kill my time or i will start to think alot of stuff liao~~

sorry~~~

too busy these days~~wait till i free little bit i update my blog ba~~ ok?? hahaa... nex week den.. i will keep it updated~~~ tata~~